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Wholly Committed


The phrase wholly committed can seem a bit scary at times. I want a deeper relationship with God. I was saved at age seven. At age fifteen I surrendered my life to Christian service. I wanted to do something in the ministry. My heart was totally sold-out for God. I finished up high school and went to a Christian college and still was on fire for God. I married and have two beautiful children. Something, though changed within my heart. Oh, I never stopped believing in God. I think I just grew complacent with my relationship with Him. I went through the motions of serving Him for several years. Going to church became a drudgery and not a joy. I stopped doing my devotions. I became very critical of the church and the people in it. What happened? I was raised in a Christian home and was brought up in the church. I knew right from wrong. I let the devil gain a stronghold in my life.

This current OBS study has really opened my eyes  and heart to the importance of not only serving God but really letting Him take control of my life. I want that deep, intimate relationship with Him that I once had. Slowly, it is coming back. I feel excitement as I get in the Word everyday and spend time with Him. I surrender my life to Him. I am totally #Amazed at what God will and can do through me if I let Him. Totally surrendered. That’s what I want for my life. This is my prayer.

“Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine.” – John 15:4

God help me to remain in You.


Radical Obedience


As I’m continuing in this amazing journey of the online Bible study, What Happens When Women Say Yes To God, by Lysa Terkeurst, my heart has been so blessed and it’s only week two. I honestly believed that radical obedience was surrendering to God to go to Africa as missionaries, or some huge act of obedience. What I have learned in week two of this study is that we can have radical obedience in our every day mundane activities of life. Isn’t this just amazing?!  All God asks of us is to obey Him. That’s it. Period.

My heart hasn’t necessarily been wanting to obey Him for about a month. I recently started a job that I really don’t like. Sounds crazy doesn’t it?! But what I have learned this week in Bible study is that even in our circumstances of life we can be radically obedient to God. It has totally changed my thinking and perspective on how I view things. I can go to this job and display an attitude of obedience to God. I can pray for my family and husband as I’m doing this job. My thoughts can go to God when I’m starting to whine or complain mentally to myself how much I hate what I’m doing. It really is a choice. I want to choose happiness and joy.

God is refining me. Before a diamond is that beautiful, sparkling gem that we see, it goes through a series of cuttings, polishings, etc. The result is what we see…..the diamond. God has a way of putting us in situations that at the time we don’t understand, but He knows the ending. He knows what it will take to get our attention. I want that radical obedience that Lysa mentions in chapter two. How about you?  I want God to have my whole heart not just half.

“We need not fear what our obedience will cause to happen in our life. We should only fear what our disobedience will cause us to miss.” Lysa Terkurst pg. 45

“You will seek me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29:13




Longing For More


As I write this post tonight I cannot help but be so grateful for all God has done for me and given me. He is truly amazing!!! The current Bible Study I’m doing with Proverbs 31 OBS is What Happens When Women Say Yes To God!!! It has already opened my heart to wanting a much deeper relationship with God.

One thing I need to work on is really being aware of God’s presence as I go through my day. God created us to fellowship with Him. He created us in His image. He wants to hear from us. Lysa mentioned a phrase in the book where she says, “We have become so familiar with God, yet so unaware.”  Wow, this hit me right between the eyes. I think we have become so used to just going through the motions and activities of life that we forget God’s power and His ability to help us. That’s where we do things ourselves and not give God any credit.

Have we forgotten? (I am including myself as I write these words.) God is so much bigger than anything we face each day. He longs to hear from us. How can we be more aware of God’s presence each day?

For me, having a heart of gratitude for everything makes me so much more aware of God. I just watched a beautiful video by Ann Voskamp on an attitude of gratitude. Oh, how this is so important! Thank God for even the seemingly little things that you think don’t really matter. As you’re doing your housework, or when you are sitting at a red stoplight, just thank God for allowing you to be right where you are. Thank Him for waking you up each morning. Before I even step foot out of the bed in the morning, I say a mental prayer to God to help me throughout the day. I ask Him to make me aware of Him and not forget Him as I get busy with life’s activities. For me, having an attitude of gratitude makes me so much happier!! It really does make a significant difference.

Spend time with God each day. Wherever and whenever you can find a quiet place to just sit and be still with God, do it. He deserves this time each and every day. Read His Word. Spend time in prayer talking to God. I have started a prayer journal and I can tell you it has helped me tremendously to keep my focus when I pray. So many times when I start to pray, I have so many things to say to God, that I get going on bunny trails. When I have a plan, and an intentional list of what and who to pray for I can focus so much better.

The bottom line is we MUST be intentional when being aware of God’s presence. These are just a few things that have helped me.  “Dear Lord, I want so much to acknowledge You every day as I go through my busy schedule. Help me to focus on You, and not get distracted by other things. Help me to pursue a deeper relationship with You. Help me to be “God-Focused” as Lysa mentions. My heart is longing to be near You always. You give grace when I don’t even deserve it. Your love is unconditional, and You give freely. Help me to mirror this is my relationship with others every day. I love You, Jesus. In your precious name I pray, Amen.”

Deuteronomy 6:5 – “And thou shalt love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your might.”

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Be Still With Jesus

Be Still With Jesus

“When His living and active Word begins to fill our hearts, fill our minds, and fill our soul, it will condition and control our prayers in such a way that our prayers conform to His will”. 

What does this mean to you? The past three weeks of the online Bible study, In The Gap, have been very eye-opening for me. I am learning to really pray with a heart to be near and close to God. I want my prayers to be answered. I want a relationship with God that mirrors a Mary and not a Martha. I want to be available and used by God. I want to sit at Jesus feet and really get to know Him intimately. After all, He created me in His image. He created me for his pleasure. He wants to be my friend.

Notice how the first part of that saying by Wendy Blight says His living and active Word. I must be in the Word and not only reading it with a head knowledge, but applying it with heart knowledge. That is the living and active part. The part that gets real. The part where I am applying scripture to my everyday life. When I am actively seeking God and in His Word daily, then He begins to speak to me in ways that transform my life. Prayer is being active. Prayer is literally talking to God. If I want a relationship with God, then I must pray and talk to Him daily. It’s just like having a friend here on earth. If I don’t invest in that relationship, if I don’t take the time to talk and share with my friend, then many times the relationship will die. It’s no different with God. He wants and yearns to hear from me daily. He is hurt when I don’t take time for Him. He grieves when I leave Him out of my daily activities. Oh, how that saddens me!! But God doesn’t force His friendship on me. He waits patiently, silently, for me to come to Him.

When God’s Word fills my mind, it will then fill my heart which will then fill my soul. When God’s Word so saturates my life that I hunger and thirst after Him, then my prayer life will begin to transform in such a way that I will want to pray God’s will for my life. I will want what God wants for me. I will pray God’s will for my life. The things I ask God for will be in line with what He wants for my life. Am I there yet? No. I never will “arrive”. But the more time I spend in quiet solitude in His Word, the more He will reveal to me in prayer as I talk to Him. Reading God’s Word and prayer are active. It’s a relationship with God. God speaks to us through His Word, then we speak to God through prayer. It really is quite simple.

I am learning that it takes time to build a relationship with God. When I am intentional and make time for God daily, then I have a peace that comes over me. My worried heart becomes a restful heart in Jesus. Why do I so many times try to do things myself? I don’t intentionally say, “I can do it, I don’t need God.” But it’s the lack of acknowledging Him in my problems where I make mistakes. I guess it is taking Him for granted, isn’t it? Wow! That makes me want to cry.

“Oh, God, please forgive me for taking You for granted! Please help me to always rely on You. I love you with all my heart, and soul, and mind. I know You are with me all the time and will never leave me. Please be near to me and quiet my restless heart. Take my worries and problems and give me a peace that only You can give. I want to be a Mary and not a Martha. Help me to not get so busy with needless “things” that aren’t really important, and to just get quiet and still before You. In your precious and lovely name I pray, Amen.”



“Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your paths.” ~Proverbs 3:5-6

Radically Encountering God


I am so excited about the in-between study, The Gap! Digging deeper in God’s Word and applying what I’ve learned is extremely satisfying to me!! I always want to get closer to God and know him better! Don’t you?

I have already learned much from Wendy Blight just from week one. I want to learn to have a prayer life that is meaningful and really taking the time to sit at Jesus’ feet. I have been convicted by something Wendy mentioned. Am I devoted to prayer? Yes, I pray. But do I have a hunger and thirst for really taking the time and develop a great prayer life? I have to say that my prayer life needs some cobwebs brushed off. This study is coming at the perfect time for me.

Sometimes we just get too busy. Not that we intentionally mean to leave God out, but we just go about our day and don’t take the time to acknowledge that God is there. I am guilty of this, but I am ready for a change. I am not content with my current prayer life. I want it better. I want it improved. Wendy mentioned a quote from Sylvia Gunther.  “Prayer is radically and gloriously encountering God, knowing Him better, loving Him more.” This is the kind of prayer life I want. How about you?

Hannah and Her Great Need


Have you ever had a need or wanted something so badly that you could hardly stand it? Have you ever had a desire so great that you couldn’t eat or sleep because of that need? I want to write about the story of Hannah from the Bible. Hannah had a great need. She had a desire so great it caused her to not even want to eat. Let’s start at the beginning of her story.


Hannah was married to Elkanah, a man from the tribe of Ephraim. Elkanah had two wives. This spells trouble already. Hannah had a great burden. She had no children. Elkanah loved Hannah. Elkanah’s other wife, Peninnah, would taunt Hannah and tease her because she was barren. Peninnah had several children with Elkanah. I can’t imagine this scenario. Hannah knew she couldn’t have children, but to be reminded in such a vicious, mean way by Peninnah just made the burden that much heavier. Hannah was so distraught over this that she would not eat and cried constantly.


When they went to the sacrifice she prayed and cried out to the Lord and wept bitterly. Hannah’s prayer went something like this……”If you will look upon me your servant, and remember me and not forget me, and give me a son, I will give him to you all the days of his life and no razor shall touch his head.”

She prayed with such conviction that Eli thought she was drunk and told her to put away her wine. Hannah told him that she wasn’t drunk but was praying to the Lord with all her heart and soul about her anxiety and great need. Eli understood her and told her to go that the Lord will grant her prayer.

This made Hannah feel much better. She was no longer sad. The Lord did show favor upon her and gave her a son named Samuel. Hannah kept her agreement to the Lord and gave Samuel to God.


Hannah prayed to the Lord a prayer of thanksgiving……I Samuel 2:1 – “And Hannah prayed, and said, My heart rejoiceth in the LORD, mine horn is exalted in the LORD: my mouth is enlarged over mine enemies; because I rejoice in thy salvation.

We can also learn much from Hannah’s story. Not only did Hannah have a need that was so great it made her not eat and cry uncontrollably, she also had great faith in God. She was troubled and heartbroken because she was barren, but also because Peninnah tormented her day and night. Hannah poured her heart out to the Lord and He heard her. No matter what problems we face, or what burdens we carry, we have a God who loves us and is only concerned for our welfare. He wants to help us, but we have to cry out to Him and let Him know. Psalm 147:3 – “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” I think Hannah was pretty brokenhearted. The Lord heard her cries and bound up her wounds. That’s exactly what He wants to do for us! All we need is the faith to trust God that He will help us in our time of need. It’s so easy to trust God when things are going well, but what about the times when our lives are crazy and seem out of control with one problem after another? This is exactly when we need to pray. Pray without ceasing. Pray when you don’t even have the words to say. Romans 8:26 says –

“Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings …”

Do you think there were times when Hannah couldn’t even pray to the Lord? I think she was there. The Lord heard her groanings. The Holy Spirit interceded for her when she couldn’t pray. This is so beautiful!! Even when we are carrying something so heavy and can’t even utter a word, The Holy Spirit prays for us! God knows our hearts. He knows the very deepest part of them. So just give your needs and your heartaches over to Him and let him carry them for you.

I want to have a faith like Hannah’s. A faith that doesn’t give up when trials come and invade our lives. No matter what happens or what anyone does to us, let’s be a Hannah, and have great faith!!

“Dear Lord, I want to have a faith so strong that nothing can keep me from you. Let me be a Hannah, and have great faith. When I have burdens and sorrows, help me to always know that you are waiting for me to come to you. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.”





Looking back on my life as a child, I remember the preacher asking people for testimonies or how they have been blessed in their lives. I always wanted to stand in front of the church and say what was on my heart. I was always so shy as a young person. So I just sat there in my seat content with listening to what everyone else said. But this doesn’t mean I didn’t have plenty to be thankful for. Yes, I am truly blessed.

I was raised in a loving, accepting Christian home as a child. I had two committed parents who determined to see that their children were brought up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord. My dad was a deacon in the church for as long as I can remember. My mother was the church pianist. My father was also the church music director and choir director. My parents were always in front of the church for every service. We were practically there every time the doors were opened and I don’t regret one single minute of it. When we went on vacation, my dad made sure we were in church on Sundays if we were going to miss our home church. Some might call this fanatical, but I call it committed. Were my parents perfect? No, not at all. They made plenty of mistakes. But they served a God who is perfect and doesn’t make mistakes. They knew the importance of raising children to understand and really know who God is. Does this guarantee that your children will turn out to be Godly men and women and serve the Lord when they grow up? No, it doesn’t. But the legacy that my parents left behind for their children will always be there. Even when the children ( myself included) stray from God, we always have the basis and foundation of who God is. We can turn to Him whenever we need Him. We know this because of the Godly parents we had.

I have been going through a difficult time in my life right now. I have really had to ‘lean into Jesus’ and learn to trust Him with every ounce of my being. I don’t have my parents to guide me now. My dad is still living and I have a wonderful relationship with him. My mother is with the Lord now. But there comes a time in your life when you, as a child of God, have to learn yourself, how to really trust God. Sure I still ask my dad for advice now and then. But my faith has to be just that. MY faith. MY trust. Not my parents. I do know without a shadow of a doubt that I am saved. I accepted Jesus into my life when I was 7 years old. But I really believe that God is molding me and refining me into something for Him. He’s teaching me through this ‘trial’ I am going through that no matter what is happening in my life, that I can and MUST trust and rely on him for strength. We must learn that God is guiding, leading, and making us into something beautiful.

Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”

I am learning that no matter what I am going through, God is always there. Through the good times and bad times. Through the sunshine and rain. Through the smiles and tears.

Yes, my friend, I am really blessed. I am a princess of the KING. When I see myself as a princess of the KING, my heart smiles with unending joy. My life story is still being written.

How are you blessed? What are you thankful for?

Dear God, I come to you today, just thanking you for all you have done in my life. For what you have allowed me to do for you. For giving me good health and just simply waking me up each morning. You, God, deserve all my praise. You, God, deserve all my love. You, God, deserve all of me. I give myself to you, Lord. I ask you to use me for whatever purpose you have for my life. Help me, father, to see that you already know the outcome of my life, that all I need to do is have faith and trust in you to complete it in me. Thank you, Lord, for I am truly blessed beyond measure.